Cal, he knows and understands as someone so much like the Jedi General he used to be just before Order 66 ripped everything away from them, stripping them of their responsibilities, their honour, their identity. Trusting the Force no matter what might be thrown their way was something they both had in common. And when Ben had just about given up on the Force, accepting it back into his life only recently for no other reason than it was required to save a little girl, Cal reminded him of what it meant to really believe in it again.
Anakin he knows like an extension of his own heart. Having raised the young boy into the man now currently in the station, when he himself had only been a boy himself, it makes all of this so much harder. They have been through so much together.
Perhaps too much. ]
He is like a ghost to me. I — [ He shakes his head, offering Luthien a rueful smile. ] It's been ten years since I lost Anakin to the Dark Side, and he doesn't know what's to come in his future.
[ He can't know. It's a truth that Obi-Wan has accepted he can never reveal because it would snuff out the very last glow of light in that boy's heart, feeding his inner demons like a feast. Obi-Wan couldn't hurt him again. ]
Sometimes I'll see that young man on the station, and it fills me with hope that he can be kept on the path of the light. But I'm afraid to admit that every time I see him, it feels a little like a rather poignant reminder of my own failings. Here is the man before the great Jedi teachings suffocated him, pushed him too far, pushed him too hard.
[ Ben's voice feels a little thick now before it finally breaks with the quiet. ]
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Cal, he knows and understands as someone so much like the Jedi General he used to be just before Order 66 ripped everything away from them, stripping them of their responsibilities, their honour, their identity. Trusting the Force no matter what might be thrown their way was something they both had in common. And when Ben had just about given up on the Force, accepting it back into his life only recently for no other reason than it was required to save a little girl, Cal reminded him of what it meant to really believe in it again.
Anakin he knows like an extension of his own heart. Having raised the young boy into the man now currently in the station, when he himself had only been a boy himself, it makes all of this so much harder. They have been through so much together.
Perhaps too much. ]
He is like a ghost to me. I — [ He shakes his head, offering Luthien a rueful smile. ] It's been ten years since I lost Anakin to the Dark Side, and he doesn't know what's to come in his future.
[ He can't know. It's a truth that Obi-Wan has accepted he can never reveal because it would snuff out the very last glow of light in that boy's heart, feeding his inner demons like a feast. Obi-Wan couldn't hurt him again. ]
Sometimes I'll see that young man on the station, and it fills me with hope that he can be kept on the path of the light. But I'm afraid to admit that every time I see him, it feels a little like a rather poignant reminder of my own failings. Here is the man before the great Jedi teachings suffocated him, pushed him too far, pushed him too hard.
[ Ben's voice feels a little thick now before it finally breaks with the quiet. ]
He was our Chosen One. And I lost him.